BE PREPARE TO FACE THE FACT....

All I have done in my life is just a disappointment to you. Nothing is good and pleasing to you.

Tell me mum, what I have done wrong to deserve this curse especially on my birthday. Your words do break the fragile heart of me.

Every time I have a scout meeting, you think I went out to smoke and hang out.

When I went for night class, you thought I went out dating even though a teacher called you; you though it was my friend, can’t you even differentiate?

When I have a scout camp, you thought I went camping at the beach drinking and taking drugs.

When I went for Friday prayers, you don’t even believe me, you thought I hang out.

You don’t even have any trust or hopes for me and what hurts the most, you don’t treat me like your son.

What I’ve done to deserve a mother like this? Should I be happy to have a mother who always think negatively and kept mocking me?

I’ve always kept quiet. Every time you beat me with a cane, scolding me with vulgarities and cursing me, I’ve kept quiet and didn’t kept any grudges against you because I do know you’re my savior and most importantly, you’re my mother. You beat me up and throw thing is not going to hurt me but it do hurts me in the inside; my heart.
Is this fate?

What you said to me today really hurts me a lot, it’s my birthday and you don’t even bother and yet saying those harsh words, is that a gift? I don’t want any presents or cakes or whatever, I just want love from you. What happened to you mummy? You’re not like the mummy I used to know.
It hurts feeling left out in the family. I just can’t fit in to them. With that, you still think negatively about it; choose friends rather than family? What’s your point mum?

I can’t change your feelings or talk to you personally because it’s useless.Even though you think i'm a brat to the family,i'll still love you mom.

Note to self; the second child is always heartache to the family….